the weather just makes me sleepy and yet lesson ends at 415 today. i got 4 out of 15 for econs test. eeyer. i hate failing tests. none of the subjects im taking now seems to be scoring well and i dont like the feeling of failing in every single thing i do. im seriously gonna suffer from depression soon if i still do not well in anything. i do not feel any sense of accomplishment at all. currently, i cant wait for the it show coming up. at least, i think i would be able to sell well and get the sense of satisfaction (:

we sat near xin again during recess. im shy. i wont initiate. never will i. so i guess, we only can remain as strangers since jane cant help me chase xin cos of her laopo who is his ex. i do wanna make friends with him, but its really hard for a gal to jio a guy. plus, ive never done anything like this in my life. 10 years in girls' school. bother. although i should try no matter what's the results, but its the outcome of my initiative which really pulls me off from saying hi to him. for now, i only can live in my own world, having all the stars related stuff, observing him from afar, getting to know him through jane. i have no idea is this just crush? infatuation? or like? :/

jon came back mj today. he played an emo song which made me day-dream. 我可以陪你去看星星.. if xin ever sings this to me, i'll cry. but i doubt this will actually happen. so i'll continue to dream..