my heart is so so pain, its even more painful than my first breakup. i dont even know if i still like him? but the feeling was so strong when i saw him but he still broke my heart. ): im so so so in an emo state now...
i saw patrick (previous crush for 2 years) at hougang mrt and he didn seem to recognize me?! its either he didn see me or he really dont recognize me. im like waiting for him to turn back and take a look at me but he didn. the worst thing is i didn had the courage to say hi to him because im afraid that he wouldn recognize me. the feeling is so terrible. i really felt like crying but tears just cant seem to come out. he's still as charming as ever, even more charming than xin. i miss him so so much. its been so long since ive seen him and he still dare to say he misses me and gor when he didn even see me! breaking down sooon.... at least one thing for sure, i dont think he's working in st james anymore which is good.

i went for ntu seminar today. its cool. i love hall 16. its like new and clean. but its very very far from business school. ive decided to go into business marketing. hopefully there's mj ppl or tk ppl that i know going into this course (: but i hate interview, seriously H-A-T-E! i cant talk properly, my oral skills are really bad. i can only talk informally and joke around with ppl but not prof for sure. i took a picture of the nice hall actually, but im too sad to go upload pictures. sighs.