okay i finally finish my chat with gor and vj. i really mean what im gonna say, i love them lots.
my gor has one thing to say, draw a clear line between me and boyband.
vj says that i should just see how things go since its holidays now and i wont see them. so i wouldn feel awkward seeing them, which is good. because, im not in the right state now.
its been a long time since ive cried, let me think, the last time i cried was because of syf?

vj, thanks for telling me. you did not make a wrong decision. in fact, you told me at the right moment, so that i can just let it all out tomorrow when we go kbox together. i trust you. you shall cheerup too because im sharing your disappointment.

my good friend, you should know who you are because you read my blog but you refuse to tag. thanks for sharing my tears and confused moments. im glad that you play a part in my life.

the cheng2 yu3 of the day is zi4 zuo4 duo4 qing2

like what rayson said, it wouldn be the same anymore.