today is the saddest day of my life
quarrelling with sucker doesn seem to be as hurtful as quarrelling with my brother who was once so dear to me
i have no idea if i broke down because im upset with him
or have i just gave up hope
i was angry with him for making me travel from mj to yishun to amk to hougang due to his assumption
i was already shagged after that horrendous maths paper and i had to waste time travelling with an empty stomach
yet i went to the stadium
i did not play at all because i just didn feel right
left after sitting there like an idiot for half an hour
why did i wanna go there in the first place
im just always being assumed
hate it
boyband just gave me a prank call saying that ly lost his phone
i really believed him until i realised that his voice sounded like ck, and i could hear ly in the background. when ck passed the phone to another guy, i just knew that it was jon. It isn jon! Gosh! Who is then? Faints. Feel so dumb. Sorry for mistooken that guy for you.
am i just so insignificant for people to play around with?
first is sucker, then its my gor and now its boyband.
im just a loser in life

ps: im not angry with boyband. They just called at the wrong time.. haha.

im appreciating the presence of daddy
he brings back pretty souvenirs and brings us out for dinner
and most importantly, HE BUYS GREAT DURIANS!!!
i just finished some durian, until i realised i was on a diet
but my diet plan always fail when daddy comes home
he'll make me eat and eat and eat
especially for dinners! ):

as usual, i ate alot for dinner today because mummy brought me to my favourite fishball noodle shop
i finished the whole bowl of soup and bought the meatballs back home so that i can cook them next time round
hahaha

mye have been the worst papers ive ever taken
gp was the top killer
both paper 1 and 2 are so difficult
im super unsure of my poc
and i didnt understand the passage
econ was the second killer
the essays are so so so chimalogy
chem paper 3 today was alright
but i bet i'll fail it
i never seem to pass chem
sighs
i'll have to depend on maths now ):
super stress about maths exam even though i did lots of practice
well, people like wenqi and joel will know that i finished my whole tys but still...
it doesn mean i'll be able to do the school paper which is so difficult
ohbother

its back to studying now...
i only left with less than 40h to complete my revision ):
sucks
no time
no mood

my heart is totally shattered by your sickening acts

thank god i still have my mj and tk loves around, listening to me. <3
mj love was saying that she'll shower the love that sucker couldn give to me so i'll be loved. haha.

met up with tk love on friday for fish spa with sac, we exchanged gifts! thanks love for the rose. so sorry that i didn write any letter for you. just wanna tell you that, no matter how far we may be, you're always my most treasured gf ever. thanks for the kiss before you left. i really needed some love then.

lazy to upload photos. so not me. but i seriously have no mood.

went to 6 aunt's house for dinner. her cooking is fabulous. but she cooked shitake which is something i'll never touch. dessert was bubor hitam (: she cooks it so much better than mummy. talked to jolyn about her school work, felt so guilty that i couldn help her much. mahjong was nice even though i lost near 10 bucks. i gained much experience though. my uncle and aunt said that im good at mahjong which made me very happy. hahahaha.

yet another day wasted.
"Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving"

and I was crying alone tonight
and I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you

playing badminton is just an activity that makes me think of you, yet im still playing it every wednesday.

you wont even care

i dont wanna use you to forget him
sorry

i guess its time for me to put down the beautiful image of love
i can only remember the pain love has brought to me

fallen
today was the last day of my enjoyment before i start my chionging of studies for the last week ): my holidays flew past so quickly, that im only left with one week for studying. depressing. still, i enjoyed my day so much (:
went out with sijia, my girlfriend aka best section mate aka best colleague for some shopping before we went for tkgs concert. i planned not to shop, but it failed terribly because i spent another 80 bucks buying 3 items. we wore new tops and new shoes to the concert. haha. we're like imba on shopping. its been an interesting shopping journey. haha. the crowd is horrendous. walking in heels made me even more tired. but i love my new heels still :D
tkgs concert was rated an okay to me. they played chim pieces but i wanted songs that will be in my mind after i leave the hall. sad. and they did not have an encore piece which is weird. i thought they will play if we hold on together. another weird thing is, we did not do cheer! its super weird, because we did tk cheer at mj concert and not on our own school's concert? how ironic.
to my dearest flautists:
you guys did well though you're clashy at some areas which were rather obvious. but still, i love the metallic sound that you guys could produce. you guys improved quite alot, especially louise. your solo was good. i love your sound. haha. continue to work hard for la forze because there's a huge room for improvement. i'll be down to hear you guys if i can get tickets. jiayous!!! (:

me and sijia in the changing room. its weird for f21 to not allow sharing. isn it faster for us to share room? plus we're girls. we have each other's assets can? haha.

during interval...

flautists and tubists..




the above 4 pictures are my batchmates whom im still close to and i managed to grab them for camwhoring... (:


my favourite junior back in tkgs who refused to admit that she has a bf... and was even shy about it... haha...

she never fails to ask why...

between the attached...


blurries... there's a reason why there's a gap in the first picture... all thanks to my gf...


flautists of batch 2003-2007 <3

we became flautists in 2003 (:

the flautists of the last concert i had in tkgs... loves... the amount of me spending in shopping is going higher and higher day by day. i spent a total of $600 including daddy's father's day present. im in love with my new bag. i have 3 new bags! (: sadly, mummy refused to get me this bag because she insisted that i have lots of bags. which i dont. another sad news is that, i didn get any new shoes!!! only one new flats from this gss. how sad. still, i bought lots of apparels which make me super happy.

I LOVE SHOPPING
DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH IT
I WANT TO BE RICH TO SHOP
HAHA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINNAY! (:

i watched my first M18 movie- SEX AND THE CITY yesterday at ps. its a really good movie. i want a girlfriend like carrie! isn it just so nice to receive a louis vuitton bag from your girlfriend? haha... but the reality is that we're not as rich as them. after watching the movie, i just feel like shopping even more. kekeke... and the way charlotte look at guys, its just so amusing. i have the urge to buy the books but i have no money after all the shopping. i went to posb to withdraw more money and i realised my bank is depleting at a faster rate than i thought. ): i hate it when mummy doesn give me allowance during holidays when she knows that daddy gives me money. the worst thing is, i have to pay for father's day dinner as well. I AM BROKE!!!

anyways, back to yesterday, i went for threading at bishan. and oh my god, i nearly died. its freaking pain and it really test your level of endurance. haha. i teared when stella threaded my eyebrow. its like my limit. i was wiggling my toes like crazy. but its quite shiok to see your face so so clean after threading. im determined to go threading every month. (:

saw darren at ps after leaving him a message that i haven been seeing him ever since he went to vj. haha. so qiao. i bet he felt that i looked old yesterday. but i had no choice... i was afraid they would check our ic but i managed to enter. heehee... only took one picture yesterday. ): lazy upload.

gonna play badminton later with SAC. funfun. :P meanwhile, i should try to study for another 2h. haha.