if i could just pretend there is no broken heart inside me
the smile that i wear, the real one is left in the past

im feeling very emotional now, tears are swelling up in my eyes but i shall be strong. im always good at hiding my emotions. love, if you are reading my blog now, i need you badly. i need counseling.

unfulfilled expectations always cause problems. having high expectations sounds great however when the expectation is unfulfilled, one bitches, one moans, one becomes disappointed. communication? its simple, yet complicated. "no expectations, fewer disappointments" if only things were that easy.

it was shopping day yesterday with my 2 future schoolmates :D
we shopped from plaza singapura all the way down to wheelock and far east. thanks gabriel for getting my discount! dont say i never thank you. haha. i never find any nice backpack, did not get any new pouch for my camera, so sad. love bought nice shoes from zara! i bought nice dresses. woohoo~ laober bought nice oversized tee. me and laober got nice pens from muji while love indulged herself in milk tea and applying lotion. haha.

had dinner at cedele. yummy yummy. my love fulfilled my appetite that i wanted on 24th. and we're heading back cedele real soon for their bread. (: HTHT with her again. left for centrepoint to have her haircut at jantzen. i like the hairstylist. i feel like getting a new hairstyle now too. haha. its good that love cut her hair with my presence, so that i wouldn nag at her hair. lols.

i was pulled to east point. nono, i went to east point 100% willingly. haha. chilled at starbucks with love and fiona. i had to look sad cos fiona abandoned her friends for us and she told her friends that im crying. haha. its great to make a new friend, though i know that she's a meridian. never got to talk to her so much. she's so shernwhey-ish. keep disturbing me. haha.

kumon was so hectic today, so many students and so many questions to answer. tired to the max. slept awhile at baby's place. his stupid desktop cant detect my card reader. how irritating. i really want to watch coming soon can! koh wen cong, you owe me many many stuff now. our first month present, a movie, and my warm chocolate cake.

cat told me that lydia received $200 taka vouchers. so i suppose i will receive around that amount too. YAYS. its shopping with jia on tuesday after our collection of vouchers! (:

pictures:













here's another picture that shern lim force me to remove if not she'll no longer cam whore. rah.




my love has xiao gui's fringe! but she forced me to remove the picture. ask me for the picture if you wanna see. kekeke...

i love my camera. i have no idea why im blogging at this hour when there's freaking kumon tomorrow. gonna blog about my lovely friday tomorrow night.

dear LOVE, everything's gonna be fine. cheer up okay. God just wants to grow and learn on 27 March 2009, and im sure you can overcome whatever that has came to you. i'll always be here for you, even if you want me to get down to east point. hee... I LOVE YOU BABE, SO SMILE (:

i am off to bed. BYE.
yays, ive gotten in OT! woohoo~
so its for sure that im studying with my love and weird.
PLEASE INCLUDE ME IN YOUR STATIONARY SHOPPING NOW!
and i want to go japan, mummy agreed! come on, we should have some fun in our first year.

i just pray that im granted my scholarship, though i think i screwed up 99.9% of my interview. it would really benefit me and my parents. if i dont have the scholarship, i may just stay in australia after getting the degree for perhaps another year (if there's no strings attached to me then).

dear god, please be nice to me.

i need to purchase my backpack soon! this is so exciting, i cant wait to study (okay, not really, i just need my life to be more normal rather than sleeping at late hours).

i gave yingxuan heart stickers today, not the one on my phone but the one i bought specially for her. BUT, she still wants the one on my phone :/ sean took one too. i love the twins so much. anyway, this boy cried at kumon. it made me feel very heartpain, he's only 5 yet he's doing 3 digits addition. i can see that he's very stress, plus his mum pushes him alot. poor boy. and i have lessons on sat, rah. its been some time since i need to teach on sat lor. ohwells, at least im gonna spend my time after that with baby (:

i want dimsum buffet. please arrange another one girls.
haven been updating cos there isn much to say about my first month.

so i shall blog about my exciting night yesterday with my love. love came to pick me up at 10 and we wanted to go serangoon gardens to chill. but when we reached there, we realised that it was parallel parking. most people would know how tough it is to park parallel parking, even my mum hates it, so yeah. after __ tries, we left serangoon gardens for thomson cos love did not want to bang into the branded cars in front and behind us. haha. like what she said in her blog, i was indeed laughing like a lunatic. its super amusing to see how love tries so hard and im sure that the driver behind us was laughing his ass off too. after driving for like half an hour, we ended up at newton cos i couldn remember how to get to thomson. lols. we went round in circles in the carpark, due to some reasons which got me in tears. our supper was awesome. everytime im with love, i eat alot and she eats even more. if i wasn a vegetarian, i would gladly help to eat the satays and chicken wings love ordered, and share oyster omelette with her. but, so sad.. haha. and i paid $2 for my chendol, not $2.50 can! ate soursop for the first time in my life, not bad. love knows my taste super well. everytime she offers me something i never tried before, i would like it. haha. i hope that she has car once every week so that we can party every week :D ladies night only! kekeke...

HTHT with love (:

thank you love for being there that day, you're always there for my unglam moments which im really grateful for. cant remember why i said i love you one million times more the other time, but now im telling you that i love you one billion times more for being there when i needed you, bringing me around in the car, allowing me to laugh at your gayness =P








i love this woman. HAPPY ONE MONTH TO MY BABY <3

CONGRATS TO LOVE AND LAOBER, WHO PASSED THEIR DRIVING. wala wala only! :D

my lovely yingxuan is still bugging for my heart stickers, i thought she would just forget. ohwells, i shall bring it for her on thursday. im a biased teacher XD
guoyi called me a monster cos i kept making him do his maths. he's really not focus lor, keep telling me he dunno how to subtract. horrible boy.
NO KUMON FROM 28 MAR TILL 5 APR cos its communication week where the chief instructor will have a one-to-one session with parents. YAYS.
yippee!!! say hello to my beauty.

the product of her will be uploaded on tuesday night.

big BIG thanks to cat who helped me got this beauty at $505. you rock :D

its back to preparation time... :/

SHERN LIM, I AM NOT ATTITUDE-ING YOU. im just, pms.
i spent the whole afternoon doing something real important, and im so happy it looks really pretty now. i will display the photo for when the time comes. (:

so i went out with the RE temps yesterday. we went to vivocity to watch "Departures" which was a super depressing movie. i didn cry, though it was really sad. sitting at the first row was torturing. no more first row seats. chilled at Starbucks (white chocolate mocha ftw), had dinner at Greenhouse Cafe, food wasn that fantastic though it was nett price, dessert at Ben & Jerry's ( the boys paid more, while the girls only paid $2 each. hee...) and finally the rooftop. our conversation was like a roller coaster, ups and downs, super amusing. i suppose the next outing will either be KTV or timbre :D

okay, i did not receive the letter from NYP and my application is receiving attention according to the website. *scared*

omg, 3 days to interview. i have not prepare anything at all. die.

on a happier note, TWO more days to our first month, although im seriously wondering why my boyfriend did not reply my message! rahrahrah.

photos taken on 1803.


im starting to get irritated by my camera's blurry shots. but its okay, cos my CANON 870 is gonna be home tonight!!! woohoo~~~



RE temps. omg, i received an email by MOH saying that ive been shortlisted for the Health Science Scholarship, offered by the National Healthcare Group, Singapore Health Services and Alexandra Health. i would need to turn up for an interview next wednesday. GG. im so freaked out now because laober didn receive the mail, which means i have to go for the interview ALONE. i dowan.................

i need people to accompany me there, seriously.
the itinerary that chee choy aka ZHI QIANG sent is so tempting. GIRLS, do your wanna go???

so the girls and i had a window shopping outing yesterday in town and we met up with mr wong chee choy, now known as zhiqiang, for a high tea session at coffee club. we talked super random stuff, and ZQ was asking if im attached. he said that someone told him that i was attached when im still in MJ. i wonder whose the person. thanks for the meal ZQ, its our turn to treat you back next time.

ive finally got some ideas of what to make, though the girls didn really help much. haha. i hope it'll turn out real nice.

SAC dinner after that was great because phy paid the bill (: we ate quite abit, and i miss the caesar salad and icecream. we talked about how phy and gw got together, i never knew gor was indirectly involved. haha. germs was cursing LG phones, so to the readers out there, please do not get LG phones. had some serious talk about something which i hope i will be able to find out real soon. dear God, please give me some strength in this. oh, and God, give my love even more strength too.

it was a chaotic day today cos i had to travel from home to tkgs to parkway to nyp to kumon. met chiping at nyp admissions office. so coincidence. i was late for kumon XD had to teach pre-schoolers again. but they're all very guai today, love them lots. yingxuan kept coming to me for my phone. she took 1h plus to finish her work, naughty girl. i love her to the max cos she's like me. haha. she loves everything that i have, my earrings, my phone, the sticker on my phone, the theme of my phone, my necklace that baby gave. i want my kid to be like her. (:

AI is getting exciting. im in love with Matt Giraud now after he sang "so small" yesterday night.
Love is all that matters after all, it sure makes everything else seem so small.
sheena is back from her chalet with her classmates. (:

went to baby's place before going to chalet cos we wanted to spend time together alone since we did not see each other for NINE days. baby did the sweetest thing ever yesterday, and i love him more than ever for giving me a necklace. not that im materialistic, but gifts are meant to be given to make girlfriend happy. hahaha.

we left for chalet in the evening, i was kinda scared that mummy will see us holding hands cos she was delivering beehoon + curry for us. ohwells, its a soon or later thing anyways. hee.. and mummy finally got to see how he looks like which is good. BBQ-ed, talked about the funniest things ever that happened in school which got us laughing like crazy especially when we talked about how shernwhey gets all the punishment during classes.

my best friends are siding baby when i whine. how nice of them. after baby left, i was whining even more, that my best friends should be on my side. hahaha. anyways, im happy that baby can click well with my friends. but he's like having flu, poor boy. hope he's feeling better.

baby left at around 12 plus, and i went back to the chalet to have a HTHT with love. had the most INTERESTING talk ever till the extent that i had to scream to express my exclamation. our neighbour who is the chef of the arena gave us rum and tequila bottle to drink. the way he pours the drink into our cups is scary. i drank really little cos i realised i can no longer hold my liquor like the past. its good cos at least baby can no longer say that im a jiu gui. its bad cos i cant drink that much anymore. anyways, the uncle jio us go ladies night then he'll provide free food and we have free flow of drinks too. sounds so attractive! :D

jon got real drunk, he vomited from 3 plus till 5 in the room, and i swear the room has tequila smell. he blabbered lots of nonsense and even shush us up when we're giggling among ourselves. poor longyao has to be his maid for the day.

i took random photos of us, and i look real horrid.







love so look like a girl school netballer with my pink hairband on.

here's the kumon boy i mentioned in my previous post.
SEAN LIM.


OMG, I JUST RECEIVED A CALL FROM MOH AND HERE'S WHAT THE LADY SAID. " if you are shortlisted for an interview, you'll receive a call from us either today or tomorrow." this doesn sound good at all, cos if i dont receive one, IM DEAD. interviews are gonna be held next week. i pray real real hard that IF ive got an interview opportunity, it wouldn fall on tuesday. i dont want my first month to clash with it................. its been some time since ive reported to kumon, and i swear i love the kids alot. took a picture of my favourite twin with my E71, actually just one of them cos yingxuan was so shy. shall upload the photo another time. had to teach pre-schoolers today and i had a tough time teaching the last kid because he couldn focus. ohwells, kids.

okay, im feeling much more better now cos ms choo replied my mail and said my essay looked good to send, which i already did yesterday. i hope daddy can fetch me to tkgs to collect my testimonial and cca record. the best thing out of everything is that, tomorrow is THE CHALET. i hope it'll be really fun, which i think it will cos its been some time since we've went crazy together. plus, all of our the other half are going. i pray real hard that there wouldn be any remedial on wednesday for baby so that he can stayover. *cross fingers*

my black hamster aka xiaohei is the most horny animal on earth. xiaobai has gave birth AGAIN to FIVE babies. in total, i have like, NINE hamsters now?! this is crazy. birth control needs to be observed because xiaohei seems to be making out with its own kid aka xiaoxiaohei.

canon 870 is gonna be purchased this saturday with the price of $521 thanks to my beloved cat who got the discount for me. and i can actually get the same freebies as IT show as well :D i just pray that there's stock for GOLD.
i am in a super angsty mode, IT show came at such a bad time that it has screwed up my application, screwed up my visits to open house. super f up. ms tan left for her holidays and i am going to submit my essay after just one draft cos the teacher apparently did not email me back with any comments of my second draft. screw her. i have to collect my testimonial and cca records myself cos shern didn help me do so. i have like freaking many things to do tomorrow when im so tired. cant even take a proper rest. gonna break down any time already. its not as if my mood has been very good to make me feel better that i have to so many last minute stuff. f it.

top 5 things that will always happen at it show
1. people step on my foot. seriously, i dont understand why people cant be more careful
2. people who are not even interested in the printers walk into the printers area. hello, are they blind. cant they see that its already so jammed up and they still have to squeeze with people who wants to buy.
3. trolleys get OOS. why doesn the number of stock tally with the number of printers.
4. stocks get OOS. and other dealers which have the stock will take your customers away.
5. people steal your customers, even if they're from the same company.

likes and dislikes about it show 2009
1. i love it when my friends come and visit me at show. big thanks to those who came over and say hi or talk to me. especially clement who comes over everyday. he always finish work earlier than me, can slack more than me, and doesn need to worry about commission.
2. i love it when my friends are working with me. hugs to yol and peiyun. you guys did a very good job. so proud of you guys. jia did a fantastic job too, we're still very good partners when it comes to it show.
3. i did not had an answer to, why your bf never come and find you when your are working at the show together. its as though im not attached, i hate that kind of feeling and the consequence is very negative. best friends would know. and the worst thing is, my dearest brother had to rub my wound with salt.
4. i love knowing more people, making more friends. this has resulted me getting to hear more and more people saying that me and gor look super alike.
5. i broke a pen that i have so much feel in writing with it.
im dying with the applications, i realised other than PSC, there are other health science scholarships available. im super dead. im still not done with the essay, one more paragraph to go before i let ms tan go through it. dying...............

im had a very interesting conversation with the temps.

william is high.
kiat! please go scold william for saying that we're together. he kept saying about me and you in the conversation lor...

its the start of IT show tomorrow. not feeling very excited cos i am still not done with my applications, feel very screwed now. ):
sheena is happy as...

1. she swam 30 laps which made her feel thin
2. she got back her tan lines (but is super red now)
3. she had a lovely night out with her dearest gfs
4. her baby boy is back in singapore (:
   

me and yol swam from 1130-245 today at tampines, the sun was lovely considering the extremely bad weather recently. yol can finally swim, so happy, now i have another swimming khaki (: BUT, her attachment is gonna start and by the time she ends, school's gonna start for me i think. after being in the water for so so so long, we became really tanned, RED to be exact. i really hate it when i have to go through the burning process, i look like a tomato now. bathing in extremely cold water did not help in making my body less red ):

after swimming, we went to tampines mall for lunch at mos burger while waiting for peiyun to come. soon, we left for vivo for our canon training session. yol and peiyun were super hardworking, they kept writing notes. me and jia were writing too, but we're writing our conversations on the thing since we cant talk normally. haha. there were so much catching up to do since we only see each during IT shows. there's much more printers at canon than hp to be learnt. ohwells, i need to chiong to earn money!!! gambatte!

jia getting E71 too! my E71 is gonna be delievered to IT show by love. (:

after canon training, we went for dinner at bachmann. the curry soup is fantastic, but it could be more spicy to be more shoik. sang yol a birthday song with a cake, camwhored at rooftop, solving this brain-teasing question yol gave.

im so gonna whine about the scholarship essay that i need to write for my next post.
its pictures time first!



after tanning, the photo does not show much difference but im still the fairest of them all.
from left to right, peiyun me yol.


before canon training...

happy belated birthday babe!




chocolate fudge from greenhouse cafe. quite nice, plus they'll give a stalk of flower if we celebrate birthdays there!






something happened when this photo was taken. hahahaha.





its as though we're from 2 different cliques...

we tried to hug, everyone looks super happy...






im always ready for photos...





drink drank drunk...



the teacher at kumon!